Tuesday, April 15, 2014

No news....isn't always good news

I cannot believe that it's already the middle of April. Never in my life did I think that waiting could go so fast. I've had several people ask me what I do during the day and every time I answer them, "I don't really know." I've found myself wandering around the apartment because I don't really know what to do to keep myself busy. I've been doing a lot of reading and even though I absolutely love reading, there comes a point when I can't do it anymore. I've rearranged my stuff a few times...by unpacking and packing again. I've done a lot of cooking. There's really nothing on TV to watch during the day. I don't know what I'm going to do when I can't have at least an hour of quiet time with God every morning. There have been times when I wake up and think - if I sleep longer than nighttime will come sooner and the day will be over sooner and the next day will come sooner...because waiting can be tiring.

I have been looking for a job. In doing that, I've found that looking every day can be a bit overwhelming and discouraging. New jobs don't necessarily pop up once a day. I know I've said I don't want a desk job, but have given that over to God. I am good at what I have done in the past, so that's what I'm sticking with right now. My goal is to apply to at least 2 jobs each week. I have a system set up in how I do it and every time I'm about to start I give it completely over to God. He knows where I'm supposed to go and knows that I hate filling out applications. I mean, seriously, who loves doing that anyways? I'm not good at selling myself. I'd rather the potential employer talk to previous employers about me.

I'm feeling restless and am getting cabin fever. I don't have friends around here and have no transportation. I'm not complaining, it's just what it is. I'm learning that I don't really have clothes for spring time and left all my capris and most of my nice shirts in Uganda....so I think a trip to Goodwill is going to be in my near future...with a couple 25% off coupons in hand. I've lived in the same "pajama" clothes for the last four months that I don't really know how to dress to go "out" anymore...that's even to the grocery store mind you.

A couple of job postings that I applied for are closing this Friday, so I'm hoping that means I'll hear from someone next week sometime. I really don't know what I would have done without my mom during this time. I keep thanking her and apologizing for having to be living off of her. God is supplying my needs and for that I am grateful.